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We’re only 20 once, and looking back, I understand why they say it’s one of the best time of your life. You’re full of hope about your future, there are tons of wonderful experiences ahead of you that you cannot even imagine. I wish we never lost that childlike sense of wonder we have when we’re 20. For most of us, it’s a time we haven’t been corrupted yet, it’s a time where we’re still naive and only at the entrance of that maze called adulthood.

A young friend of mine asked me if I could add him to the series. He’s a beautiful and kind hearted young man, he’s like a little ray of sunshine everywhere he goes. I hope he never looses that sweetness. Unfortunately with age and bad experiences, life can turn that sweetness into bitterness. Life is never as easy as we imagine it’s going to be when we’re 20. There will be joy, there will be pain, but ultimately it builds you into the person you are. Your core will never change. But experience will make you different in many ways.

I’m 29 now, and when I think of me in my 20’s,  I smile and can’t believe how much I’ve changed. I’ve always been a mature and a goal driven person,  but I used to be so much more easily offended and naive back then.  I think I changed the most when I was between 23 and 25. Lots can happen in a year or two. The years go by fast, and if I can give one piece of advice, it would be; “Make it count”. Use your time wisely, because the energy  and passion we have at that age is pretty unique. When comes failures and disappointments along with successes we set for ourselves, it becomes harder and harder to put that incredible energy into everything we do.

So to my young friends I’ll say this; live, work as hard ans you can, but enjoy every moment, even the tough ones, one day you will look back on them and smile. Because you will have learnt so much from it. Love as much as you heart can carry, there is no reason to hold back when we’re young and far from any obligation of settlement. And even though that’s something I wish never had to change. Eventually society’s forces up to ask ourselves these stupid questions once we reach a certain point in our lives; “Am I ready for a lifetime with that person? Do I make enough money to have a family? Am I ready for this?”

I wish we never let our young idealism go, when we love and do things with spontaneity, without care for the future. I think we should never let it burden us. Of course we need to be responsible and being ingenue doesn’t mean you can act selfishly all your life.

When I was 20 I used to be very annoyed with people my age. Now I look at them with a motherly affection and much more patience than I had even a couple years ago. I can excuse a lot from someone in his early 20’s. They’re still children in my eyes on so many levels. But I’m no so forgiving with people in their 30’s. Ironically we live in a society were most men are nothing but 35 years old boys.

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There is that wonderful French song that defines perfectly what it’s like to be when you’re 20. I remember when I listen to it back then I didn’t really understood the words, not as clear as I see them now as a 29 year old adult.

“For all burden, you have twenty years behind you.
When you Love, it’s for a Lifetime
That Life that last the time of a cry

When you love it’s till Death
You often die, then you go out
You go smoke a cigarette
Love you take it, and then you junk it”

I feel like I died many times in the past 10 years, we are reborn every year with each new experience. With a new outlook on life, with great joy, and great pain. We learn to be alone. With time, everything fades, it’s perfectly ok and fine. But That’s why it’s so important to seize these moments and never be afraid of taking risks, especially with your emotions. Because all can be gone so abruptly. Everything will be gone eventually.

With time, the faces, the tenderness, the bitterness, the excruciating pain, the laughs, the tears… with time they all dissipate, and everything becomes fine…

till soon~

D

 

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I reached 350 Polaroids, after the last post I felt I was done with the Polaroids series. Here is the last Polaroid #350.

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I was trying to grasp that peculiar moment that happened last summer, when the person you  love finally let go of their doubts and fears and take a risk to tell you how they feel. It’s always hard to be true to your feelings, understand them, and even more, express them. It can be so hard sometimes to let the words out because you’re so scared of the person reaction. Or you’re self conscious about the consequences of those words. But when the fear is gone, there is just that incredible sense of unique completion, complicity and warm, that only someone you truly love can give you.

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I actually cried a lot when I was done drawing those two. I feel at the end of my rope when it comes to the Polaroids. I’ve been doing all these as a sort of outlet for my sorrow, and it allowed me to capture moments that won’t pain me so strongly in a year from now. I’m therefore glad I managed to capture them. But I’d like to not feel the need to do them anymore. And I thought those were a perfect way to end it.

I know I could do another 50 and have 400… But as of now, I’d like to focus on getting all these in galleries, the 350 are meant to be shown and sold as ONE unique piece and I have a body of work important enough that now I feel the need to get it out there and try to sell it. I’m currently working on making limited lifesized print of a collage of all the polaroids.

I’m a little sad it’s the end of an era, 3 years, almost 4, working on this series. But I’m excited about the next stage.

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Now it doesn’t mean the end of Love’s a Bitch. Just the Polaroids. I’m thinking of taking things into a new direction. I’m starting working on a new project called “Love at War” which seems a logical route. It’s an idea for an epic animated tale, for all audience. But I’m thinking of making “deleted scenes” where we could see the two main characters get intimate. What if cartoon characters had sex? I always wondered… I’m sure there is porn out there available for that but I’d like to keep it erotic and just more about love than “just” about sex.

till next time….

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Here are a couple of larger scale Polaroids. Pushing a little the graphic on that first one. I recently read that blog about how people we come to love eventually become strangers. Not because we forget about them but because we decide to make them stranger to our life. It’s sad how someone you were so close to indeed suddenly becomes a stranger, the connection you once share becomes nothing but a memory. We live our lives knowing that the person you once love has become nothing but another lost face in the crowd. When in fact you use to know them on a deeper level than any of their friends. The vision you have of a person within the confine bedroom is very different from when you are outside socializing. Uncovering a person in the intimacy can be scary, for some people it’s hard to let the other in, but when you’re comfortable you really do come to see them under a very unique light. And that knowledge will never be lost.

On another note, I’m also considering more and more starting to work on a music video for Love is A Bitch and do a nice animated piece using the Polaroids. I still have to find a technique I’m happy with thought.

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I’m tired so I’ll close this on a Verlaine’s poem;

Memory with Twilight glows
And trembles on the fiery horizon
Of burning Hope that shrinks and grows
Like some mysterious partition
Where the flowers in profusion
– Dahlias, lilies, tulips and marigolds –
Fly round a trellis in their circulation
Among the heady exhalation
Of heavy perfumes, whose warm poison
– Dahlias, lilies, tulips and marigolds –
Drowning my senses, soul and reason,
Mingles in their immense confusion
Memory with Twilight’s glows.

Till soon…

~ D

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I’m sorry I haven’t posted anything in a while, but I have been busy with another project. I’m not giving up on the Polaroids though, I’d like to do more on my down time. Here are a couple I did not post back then. I actually animated one of them, maybe I’ll show that to you next time…

till soon

-D

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Here are some more Polaroids for the End of the Summer 2012. The summer went by it seem all too fast this year…

“When summer’s end is nighing
And skies at evening cloud,
I muse on change and fortune
And all the feats I vowed
When I was young and proud.

The weathercock at sunset
Would lose the slanted ray,
And I would climb the beacon
That looked to Wales away
And saw the last of day.

From hill and cloud and heaven
The hues of evening died;
Night welled through lane and hollow
And hushed the countryside,
But I had youth and pride.

And I with earth and nightfall
In converse high would stand,
Late, till the west was ashen
And darkness hard at hand,
And the eye lost the land.

The year might age, and cloudy
The lessening day might close,
But air of other summers
Breathed from beyond the snows,
And I had hope of those.

They came and were and are not
And come no more anew;
And all the years and seasons
That ever can ensue
Must now be worse and few.

So here’s an end of roaming
On eves when autumn nighs:
The ear too fondly listens
For summer’s parting sighs,
And then the heart replies.”

– AE Housman

till soon….

-D

I started reading that book called “The sociopath next door” which made me ponder about certain existentialist questions….

About one in twenty five individuals are believed to be “Sociopaths”, meaning that they are depraved of a conscience. They distinguish the difference between “good” and “Evil” but cannot limit themselves on account that they are incapable to process any emotions. When they fake emotions it’s usually for self-centered aims.

Why should we have a conscience? Would society crumble if nobody cared about each other and was completely emotionless? Sounds like a robotic world to me where everybody would do mechanically what they are told to do….
What really defines right from wrong? Morals? Religion?
Why should we listen to them?

I think human being need to connect with one another, without the boundaries with another human being, your “self” cannot exist. Because we only are the mere reflection of the person in front of us. We feel the need to exist through them. We should be aware of each other and the impact we have on our surrounding.
Just like Sartre explained on Existentialism, because we are free to be our own master and create our own values doesn’t mean we shouldn’t be aware of our surrounding, ON THE CONTRARY. “The loss of external value allows us to get value from within ourselves, a value that is greater because it cannot be taken away by external forces.” — “In choosing our own nature we must choose human nature for all humanity. In order to act freely, we must not let our action be determined by any of our particular desires or interests. We must act as any free agent would act, hence we must act as we would like other people to act.”
A lot of guys mistake being existentialist for “doing whatever the hell I want” whereas a true Existentialist is actually a RESPONSIBLE human being and a sort of philanthropist.

Chances are, you know several “sociopaths” but cannot bring yourself to think they are completely void of emotions. They’re your friends, your lover, your parents! And nothing will change them. Sociopath usually have a overwhelming self-esteem that makes them never question the fact that they behave inappropriately or with a lack of interest toward one’s welfare.

Now, I feel The term sociopath has been very fashionable these days, and on the account that somebody is simply acting like a selfish prick we’re going to label him/her as a “sociopath”.
Truth is, we live in a society that became much more individualist, cynical and selfish. And people are confused about how they should process their emotions. When it comes to relationship more and more people seem to look for specific “qualities” rather than trusting their instincts or emotions because “Love” seems to be an overrated and nonobjective feeling.

We certainly accused some of our lovers to be “sociopaths” on the simple account that they were acting like jerks. Fact is they are who they are and we shouldn’t waste time with people who make us feel unworthy of their time and attention.

If you think you know a sociopath take a look at these funny characteristics, I sure had a good laugh. I can think of at least three people I know who correspond to the profile! Maybe they should just call it the “asshole syndrome”. And there is no known cure for that!

till soon…
-D

Here are some more Polaroids, the undercoat of Yellow came out very bright and for some reason the first words that came in my mind when I looked at them was “Gin & Tonic”

Summer is getting closer, it’s going to be a time for romance for most people. Personally my life is getting too complicated to think straight about anything… I’ll just go with the flow. Fill up my lungs with smoke and drown my heart into liquor. Trying to forget about the lonely and cold months of the winter. Trying not to think about those who mattered… We will think about the future another time.

Waking up next to someone can be nice though… that is if they’re not snoring.

till soon…
D-