Posts Tagged ‘life’

We’re only 20 once, and looking back, I understand why they say it’s one of the best time of your life. You’re full of hope about your future, there are tons of wonderful experiences ahead of you that you cannot even imagine. I wish we never lost that childlike sense of wonder we have when we’re 20. For most of us, it’s a time we haven’t been corrupted yet, it’s a time where we’re still naive and only at the entrance of that maze called adulthood.

A young friend of mine asked me if I could add him to the series. He’s a beautiful and kind hearted young man, he’s like a little ray of sunshine everywhere he goes. I hope he never looses that sweetness. Unfortunately with age and bad experiences, life can turn that sweetness into bitterness. Life is never as easy as we imagine it’s going to be when we’re 20. There will be joy, there will be pain, but ultimately it builds you into the person you are. Your core will never change. But experience will make you different in many ways.

I’m 29 now, and when I think of me in my 20’s,  I smile and can’t believe how much I’ve changed. I’ve always been a mature and a goal driven person,  but I used to be so much more easily offended and naive back then.  I think I changed the most when I was between 23 and 25. Lots can happen in a year or two. The years go by fast, and if I can give one piece of advice, it would be; “Make it count”. Use your time wisely, because the energy  and passion we have at that age is pretty unique. When comes failures and disappointments along with successes we set for ourselves, it becomes harder and harder to put that incredible energy into everything we do.

So to my young friends I’ll say this; live, work as hard ans you can, but enjoy every moment, even the tough ones, one day you will look back on them and smile. Because you will have learnt so much from it. Love as much as you heart can carry, there is no reason to hold back when we’re young and far from any obligation of settlement. And even though that’s something I wish never had to change. Eventually society’s forces up to ask ourselves these stupid questions once we reach a certain point in our lives; “Am I ready for a lifetime with that person? Do I make enough money to have a family? Am I ready for this?”

I wish we never let our young idealism go, when we love and do things with spontaneity, without care for the future. I think we should never let it burden us. Of course we need to be responsible and being ingenue doesn’t mean you can act selfishly all your life.

When I was 20 I used to be very annoyed with people my age. Now I look at them with a motherly affection and much more patience than I had even a couple years ago. I can excuse a lot from someone in his early 20’s. They’re still children in my eyes on so many levels. But I’m no so forgiving with people in their 30’s. Ironically we live in a society were most men are nothing but 35 years old boys.

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There is that wonderful French song that defines perfectly what it’s like to be when you’re 20. I remember when I listen to it back then I didn’t really understood the words, not as clear as I see them now as a 29 year old adult.

“For all burden, you have twenty years behind you.
When you Love, it’s for a Lifetime
That Life that last the time of a cry

When you love it’s till Death
You often die, then you go out
You go smoke a cigarette
Love you take it, and then you junk it”

I feel like I died many times in the past 10 years, we are reborn every year with each new experience. With a new outlook on life, with great joy, and great pain. We learn to be alone. With time, everything fades, it’s perfectly ok and fine. But That’s why it’s so important to seize these moments and never be afraid of taking risks, especially with your emotions. Because all can be gone so abruptly. Everything will be gone eventually.

With time, the faces, the tenderness, the bitterness, the excruciating pain, the laughs, the tears… with time they all dissipate, and everything becomes fine…

till soon~

D

 

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Here are 3 medium size Polaroids, I’m up to 343 now.

This set worked well together when I lined them up. Memories slip away one by one, but it takes time to get them all out. No matter how much you try to tell your brain not to think, or not to cry, sometimes the memories just float back in, unexpected, you don’t always know why or what triggers them. Unless you suffer from dementia and literally loose your mind and cannot remember who people are, only time make certain memories less vivid. Although they somehow become a part of you as well, they just become less oppressing. They say love is the greatest disease.  It sure is infectious like one.

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We’re so focus on the present we tend to be scared of the future, and we refuse to live in the past. But we only get older, and one day you end up looking back, not forward.

The past inspires me, the present bores me unless I’m sharing it with someone significant, the future gives me hope.

till next time….

 

~ D

 

Here are a couple of Polaroids set, some Portraits and some Body parts.

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I do portraits once in a while, it’s always hard to nail someone’s expression but I think I did a good job here. For this set I was interested in juxtaposing my 3 most recent lovers and see if I see something different about them. And I have to say it’s quite interesting… I’m obviously attracted to a specific type. What strikes me the most in the features are the eyes.

On a fun note, those three together make a PhD…. Does that mean I graduated? I sure still over-think everything. However those relations brought me to a point in my life where I know where I stand, I know what I need and won’t be so trusting nor kind anymore. It’s sad when being “too giving” becomes a burden and a source of pain. But then again I’m known for being good at making work about the feel of being lost and misunderstood. So maybe my curse as an artist is not to be able to be careless enough, but on the up side it allows me to create intimate and honest work.

BodiesI’m very happy about how these 2 turned out. When you fall asleep or awake next to your lover you always take time to gaze upon their bodies, you try to memorize every line, every beauty spot. It’s one of those rare peaceful moment where you can meditate and do not think about anything but the present moment, and the body lying next to you and how much you care about them.  At least for me.

I should do more of those body parts, they translate well the nostalgia and melancholia of lost loves.

till soon…

~ D

Here is a set where I’m pushing the boundaries a little bit. I called it “Pineapple” or “Ananas” as for the French.

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Giving a “head” is one of those thing I consider the ultimate thing to do when you’re intimate with someone. It shouldn’t be taken lightly. It’s one of those thing you can only appreciate when you truly like the person you’re being intimate with. Because it’s not only completely loosing yourself into someone, it’s giving a little piece of you to them. And it can’ be enjoyed for both part unless you are really into it.  Unfortunately, a lot of people tend to banalize sexuality and think of it as if it where… nothing more than a piece of pie. It’s not. You should value these moments and make it special. Because the truth is, it only feels amazing, when you feel comfortable with it, and to get to that level of comfort, in all honesty, you need trust. And that’s one of the hardest thing to give/get. Think about it. And it’s the same thing the other way around. For a guy to feel easy enough to spend time “down” on you and, you, actually enjoying it, takes a strange mix of desire, trust, and love.

I’ll close on that song that got all of us horny… Crazy on You.

till next time.

~ D